Post by Della Wren on Mar 6, 2023 11:22:34 GMT -6
I've been on an interesting journey the last little while and I wanted to share it with you. I put it under "Allowing Change" because that's exactly what I have gotten to do, change. It's not always easy but I've learned to see the value in the reward of doing it, so I find ways to allow myself to continue forward.
When I originally started this work, I thought of it as more of a traditional model. Make something or offer some service and sell it. For the longest time I did both; I was offering coaching and classes as services and selling books on the side. I never could make that model work. Maybe I suck at sales, maybe it's just not right for me, maybe I just didn't want to do it and so there was a whole lot of self-sabotage going on there. Whatever it was, it flopped after years of trying.
I had an epiphany of sorts over the weekend that I was tired of trying to make things work. I was tired of pretending that it was okay. I was tired of pretending that I was just going to keep going on the path I was on. I wanted change. I wanted it months ago, and so far I hadn't been able to make it happen. The result was that I was exhausted by the whole thing and ready to give up.
That led to the realization that I was happier as a content creator. I didn't want to sell anything. I didn't want to coach anybody. I didn't want a traditional business model. I wanted to share my message and nothing else really. I was happy just sort of doing what I was doing. Within that same moment I realized I needed to add TikTok to my list of platforms because TikTok would allow me to grow my audience.
I've played with TikTok in the past. I have a bunch of videos up there. I used to do some tarot readings on there and deleted those. Now I just offer spoken versions of what I write. I keep them under 3 minutes, although TikTok would definitely allow me to ramble on for 10 minutes. Would anybody watch that? Who knows! Honestly, I've argued with using TikTok as a regular platform a lot because I don't have the fancy house. I don't have a huge wardrobe (I barely have a weeks worth of clothes.), I'm old and the wrinkles are showing, my teeth aren't perfect, and my hair is thinning. I don't have all the things and it makes me want to argue with my confidence, but I'm going to bite the bullet and do it anyway.
Why?
Because that's what change looks like. That's what content creation is about. That's what this journey is about. I absolutely have to get out of my own way. I have to allow this to move forward because if I stay stuck in the problems with it, I won't be happy. I see the value in the reward of just getting out there and doing it regardless of how self-conscious I might be. I make the choice and do the thing. I'm willing to see what happens and I trust that I'll get the lessons I need out of the experience.
To allow change, we have to find the value in the experience because we don't always know the outcome. When I talk about the value of the reward, it's not the outcome that I'm referring to, it's the clarity that comes from going on the journey. I'll take the clarity every single time. I'm willing to try it and see what happens. I'm willing trust that I'll get what I need along the way.
It's not always easy. As a matter of fact, sometimes it's really dang hard. Certainly the last few weeks have felt like I've been put through a meat grinder, but still I'm grateful for the experience. I'm grateful for the journey every time. Truthfully, I couldn't be here writing this if I wasn't grateful for the journey because I would have given up a long time ago. But not only am I not giving up, I'm actually just getting started and I'm excited to see what happens next.
Can you allow change? Can you go with it? Can you see the value in the clarity that comes from just going on the journey?
If not, start looking around because it's the journey where all the good stuff is found. The reward comes and goes, but the journey continues. Always.
Love to all.
Della
When I originally started this work, I thought of it as more of a traditional model. Make something or offer some service and sell it. For the longest time I did both; I was offering coaching and classes as services and selling books on the side. I never could make that model work. Maybe I suck at sales, maybe it's just not right for me, maybe I just didn't want to do it and so there was a whole lot of self-sabotage going on there. Whatever it was, it flopped after years of trying.
I had an epiphany of sorts over the weekend that I was tired of trying to make things work. I was tired of pretending that it was okay. I was tired of pretending that I was just going to keep going on the path I was on. I wanted change. I wanted it months ago, and so far I hadn't been able to make it happen. The result was that I was exhausted by the whole thing and ready to give up.
That led to the realization that I was happier as a content creator. I didn't want to sell anything. I didn't want to coach anybody. I didn't want a traditional business model. I wanted to share my message and nothing else really. I was happy just sort of doing what I was doing. Within that same moment I realized I needed to add TikTok to my list of platforms because TikTok would allow me to grow my audience.
I've played with TikTok in the past. I have a bunch of videos up there. I used to do some tarot readings on there and deleted those. Now I just offer spoken versions of what I write. I keep them under 3 minutes, although TikTok would definitely allow me to ramble on for 10 minutes. Would anybody watch that? Who knows! Honestly, I've argued with using TikTok as a regular platform a lot because I don't have the fancy house. I don't have a huge wardrobe (I barely have a weeks worth of clothes.), I'm old and the wrinkles are showing, my teeth aren't perfect, and my hair is thinning. I don't have all the things and it makes me want to argue with my confidence, but I'm going to bite the bullet and do it anyway.
Why?
Because that's what change looks like. That's what content creation is about. That's what this journey is about. I absolutely have to get out of my own way. I have to allow this to move forward because if I stay stuck in the problems with it, I won't be happy. I see the value in the reward of just getting out there and doing it regardless of how self-conscious I might be. I make the choice and do the thing. I'm willing to see what happens and I trust that I'll get the lessons I need out of the experience.
To allow change, we have to find the value in the experience because we don't always know the outcome. When I talk about the value of the reward, it's not the outcome that I'm referring to, it's the clarity that comes from going on the journey. I'll take the clarity every single time. I'm willing to try it and see what happens. I'm willing trust that I'll get what I need along the way.
It's not always easy. As a matter of fact, sometimes it's really dang hard. Certainly the last few weeks have felt like I've been put through a meat grinder, but still I'm grateful for the experience. I'm grateful for the journey every time. Truthfully, I couldn't be here writing this if I wasn't grateful for the journey because I would have given up a long time ago. But not only am I not giving up, I'm actually just getting started and I'm excited to see what happens next.
Can you allow change? Can you go with it? Can you see the value in the clarity that comes from just going on the journey?
If not, start looking around because it's the journey where all the good stuff is found. The reward comes and goes, but the journey continues. Always.
Love to all.
Della